Renounce and Rejoice
In order for me to live the life I desired, I had to renounce my ego. The ego? That conscious mind, the part of my identity I considered Phoenix. In order to have a merry time in my future life, I am taking out my ego while no one is watching and throwing it away.
My ego made me rediscover a lonely little girl sitting in a corner waiting to be rescued. Was she waiting for a knight in shining armor, or was she just waiting? What I rediscovered was I had become a product of what others desired me to be. I was time to renounce this foolishenss. I was becoming the coaching, emphatic, empowering duplicate of others. I was no longer myself, Phoenix J Ma’ri.
We live in a world with our spouses, friends, and family and at times they are before us and we still don’t see them. I felt this way about Phoenix. Why didn’t anyone see her? Why wasn’t she heard? Then I realized, my intentions were pure and genuine and I couldn’t attack someone when they are acting ignorance because it didn’t serve a purpose to my growth.
The sooner I learned from my mistakes the sooner I overcame the sufferings, and that’s what I did. I decided to learn from the mistakes of taking the opinions of others as my currency. I started taking my currency to the bank, making a full deposit into my future without any non-sufficient funds charges. “Healing is the rediscovery of who we are and who we have always been“.~Joan Z. Borysenko
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